Dear life - or at least apparently mine:

Why and how can you be so cruel sometimes? Why was I tricked into marrying someone who is not only NOT my best friend, but apparently someone that I not only wouldn't have looked twice at across a crowded room, nor decidedly hung out with because she's a complete tool? Why have you made the love of my life available again and not I? Why have you made it impossible for me to become available again... All I want is her (not the wife)... I can't have her... and yet you dangle her in front of my face.

You suck.
J